It occurred to me today, that while I'm working and paying bill's I'm not LIVING my life.
Fear, Comfort Zones (everyone has these, and it's one of the hardest things to do to step out of them), and sheer lazyness are my downbringers...
Well, I'm going to fix the Fear bit. Everyday do something that I wouldn't normally do. Talk to a stranger on a train. Be more open to people. Be more approachable, even my boss is scared to come near me when I'm working.
Lazyness - there's not much I can say about that. I read a while ago that it takes your brain 21 days to become accustomed to a new regime. I wonder if I can make one last?!
Evasion is wonderful. Have you ever noticed how you can talk about almost anything when you don't want to admit whats worrying you? Well, that's fear - and since I'm trying to face my fears, here goes.
Tomorrow, I visit my GI specialist. In January they found hundreds of polyps in what remains of my colon. At the time they were diagnosed as Non-malignant. 2 years ago there was no sign of anything like that, whats going to be there in another 2years?
